March 8th, 2005

For like weeks and weeks I've been NOT blogging..it's because..of course WORK la!!

I'm surpirisingly more energetic because I'm waking up early so often...It's a good feeling

In school, things are damn screwed up man! hahahaha

We're finding new ways everyday to make things funny though..
Posted by joshux at 01:13 AM | I wanna whine too

January 28th, 2005

The first shall be last
And the last shall be first

The patient will be rewarded
And those who give in to their impulses
Will be given what is their's

The day is coming
When the sun will shine on you again

You will be
the Sun-kissed glory

Master of what you were once again

Everyone will see and know what you have done
What you have to show will amaze them

Those who have wrongly crossed your path
Will be removed from their place

Cut out like a stray lamb
They will be chained to eternal darkness

Where there will be knashing of teeth
And they will beg to be given a sip of water

But even a sip of water will burn their tongues
In this place of eternal horror

They will call out to you
"Save me, I did not intend to harm you"

But you will say to them
"Woe is you, oh evil hearted people
On your tongues are lies, deceit and hatred
And your shirt is stained with the blood of the weak
Your smile is that of a haughty man,
defiled by the riches of this earth
and the lusts of his heart"

They will call for respite
But receive lashings

They will seek death
but find only eternal anguish

The poor fools who you have deceived, oh Babylon
Will be chained to you when you are destroyed by fire
They will cling to your loins
But find they have been ruined by a stain that cannot be cleansed
Weap and beg for mercy
Or the fire shall come and consume you

Am I crazy? Remember what they said about false prophets. I keep thinking I'm like...one of them. But ou know..I'm so damn...urgh..can't describe it, how I've been feeling for so long about this. But I can say this: An apology isn't enough. Specially one that makes YOU feel better.

Why can't I just go back to the old days?
Cos even if I wanted to fix things

They wouldn't go back to the old days.
Like a year ago.

Why did I write something like that?
Do I really want JUDGEMENT to fall on people like that?

Who am I to judge this?
God, this is my prayer:
Let thine will be done


Forgive me I pray
I have forsaken your commands
Help me find you Lord
It's so hard to find you.
I've been such a fool
Yet not a fool for you
But for this world
Take me back Lord
Back to your safe arms
I'm not strong enough Lord
I need you
Won't you show me again
Your light
Your peace and mercy
And Joy
Specially your Joy.

Please God...reply
Posted by joshux at 02:32 AM | I wanna whine too

January 27th, 2005

Nick and Pat were over today to do some Multimedia Filming.

In between shooting we

watched some SOUTHPARK!!
played some ICYTOWER
talked a lot
played some PIANO
played some GUITAR

And I was so damn happy man!
Haha..keep me happy, nick and pat!!

It makes me feel quite satisfied with life!

It takes someone's death to save many other lives.
Posted by joshux at 12:08 AM | I wanna whine too

January 16th, 2005

Posted by joshux at 05:30 PM | I wanna whine too

Now a shadow of my former self

I avoid
I run away

I can't face what I've messed with
I've lost more than the usual

I wish I could want
But I don't know what I want

I don't feel like doing anything at all
I have to

People care
But they don't care

How I used to be
How I used to be

Now a shadow of my former self
Posted by joshux at 12:06 PM | I wanna whine too

Give me what I want.
Posted by joshux at 12:04 AM | I wanna whine too

January 15th, 2005

So tired to update
Some respite is needed
from this pit of confusion

It's easier to sleep it all off
Easier to laugh it all off
Easier to close my eyes


We call upon the other side
Let them hear our pee
Posted by joshux at 01:16 AM | I wanna whine too

January 7th, 2005

3 Days

Three days to get well
I am well again!!

I can still see the words fresh in my mind.
MEDIA OFFLINE

What a shitty day man.
The ice cream machine pissed me off too.

And my mom remembered details of an incident that pissed me off.
It still pisses me often to think about such incidents.

Gotta Cut away, clear away
Slip away and sever this
Posted by joshux at 11:58 PM | I wanna whine too
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